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My grandpa was hospitalized
And now he's dead Just got the phone call...
My grandpa was hospitalized
My condolences to you and your family, man.And now he's dead Just got the phone call...
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I'm currently stuck in a weird mind-frame where I can't tell if my work/life balance is off, or if I'm right to be upset about when things go wrong for me at work, even when it's arguably "small problems". I spend a lot of time in the office (probably too much time), and as such I want to feel like my time here is valuable and is spent doing good work. I want to feel like there's some level of trust in my judgment and the way that I design and implement my work. Am I putting too much weight in what happens in the office because the majority of my waking time is spent here? Or is the life balance thing irrelevant, and I have every right to stand behind the work that I'm doing?
I really hate that feeling of both being really mad at something, but also doubting whether or not it's fair for me to be mad in the first place. It feels defeating either way.
I'm not reaaaaaally hourly - I sort of stroll in when I feel like it in the morning, and leave when I feel like I did enough for the day - sometimes that's after my standard 8 hour day, but more often than not, I'm here for longer than that. It's flexible enough that the amount of time I spend here is definitely by choice. It's not uncommon for me to wake up, go to work, go home, have maybe 2-3 hours to myself, then go to bed and repeat. I just keep getting stuck in situations where whenever I try to take on a task of any importance, there's some kind of push-back, and it kills any confidence or enthusiasm I had in that work. I unfortunately can't go into any real details, and I don't have a good analogy for it.
And then when something does go wrong, I normally like to be that guy who doesn't take work home, but it's hard to invest so much effort into something, and not have the rest of your day be ruined when it blows up. I just can't switch that off when I leave the building all the time, as much as I try to. The amount of time I spent at work transform a "problem at work" into a "problem with the one thing you're doing with your life right now", which is where I question the balance thing.
Yup. That part drives me nuts.the hardest part is determining whether you actually are, or if it's just how you feel
I've been pretty blunt about it with my immediate lead. I was assured that, of course it's just how I feel, of course the value what I'm doing, etc. I may have to keep poking at that one. There are layers to the situation. I don't deny that one of those layers is my own head. But I'm confident it's not the only significant layer.Do you have any peers at work you'd feel comfortable talking candidly about this with?
Yup. That part drives me nuts.
I've been pretty blunt about it with my immediate lead. I was assured that, of course it's just how I feel, of course the value what I'm doing, etc. I may have to keep poking at that one. There are layers to the situation. I don't deny that one of those layers is my own head. But I'm confident it's not the only significant layer.
I appreciate the feedback on my ranting though.
I just keep getting stuck in situations where whenever I try to take on a task of any importance, there's some kind of push-back, and it kills any confidence or enthusiasm I had in that work. I unfortunately can't go into any real details, and I don't have a good analogy for it.
And then when something does go wrong, I normally like to be that guy who doesn't take work home, but it's hard to invest so much effort into something, and not have the rest of your day be ruined when it blows up. I just can't switch that off when I leave the building all the time, as much as I try to. The amount of time I spent at work transform a "problem at work" into a "problem with the one thing you're doing with your life right now", which is where I question the balance thing.
I've been pretty blunt about it with my immediate lead. I was assured that, of course it's just how I feel, of course the value what I'm doing, etc. I may have to keep poking at that one. There are layers to the situation. I don't deny that one of those layers is my own head. But I'm confident it's not the only significant layer.
My amp... She die...
Didn't you just get a new one? I remember recommending an amp to you. Is this the new one you got?My amp... She die...
Yea that Randall is not doing so well anymore... They're letting me return it so the hunt begins anew.Didn't you just get a new one? I remember recommending an amp to you. Is this the new one you got?